The Weight Journey Continues

Today I have my appointment with the nutritionist, another one of the hoops I must jump through to have the weight loss surgery. I think it's just so she can make $125 but that's just my opinion. I think this is the final hoop - next it goes to my insurance company for approval. I'm not expecting any problems with that but one never knows.

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My grandaughter, love of my life, is now a teenager! She looks at me like I don't know a thing and sometimes like I came from a different planet. This picture was taken at the annual Easter picnic at Mule Power Farms - it's a great time!

This is my youngest, Ickra, in Beverly Hills outside the same ladies room the George Michaels was caught doing something lewd.

My Dear Daughter

My dear daughter, Bona, turned 35 on Monday. She is a mom of 2 children, 6 and 14, and she's in her last year of college. Bona is strong, faithful and a real "go-getter". She's a born leader. When she was little she was always coming up with new games and ways of entertaining herself and others. She was forever changing her room around and cleaning - by herself! No one had to tell her something needed cleaned - she just did it! She's also very resourceful. If I ever need help with anything I know I can count on her.

Her daughter looks just like her and acts like her too! I'm so proud of her - she just lost over 30 pounds and she's lookin' real good. I don't know when she finds the time to take care of herself but she does. Her son has ADHD and a sensory problem that makes him extremely sensitive and he can be a real handful. I don't know how she does it but she does and I'm very proud of her.

My Baby, Ickra

My baby, Ickra, turned 34 on Monday. She's a great lady! She has a great job as senior tech and office manager at a vet clinic and takes very good care of herself. She's beautiful, sweet and fun to be with. She loves football, rock n roll and travelling but most of all she loves her family.

I remember a defining moment in our relationship when she was about 11 or 12. She was home on a summer break from the boarding school she attended and we were sitting at the table playing cards. Ickra loved to play - anything! I looked at her and it dawned on me that even though I loved her so much I really enjoyed her company, her humor and her. I saw her as a person apart from me and I liked what I saw. She was fun to be with, always laughing, happy and carefree. Whenever I see a little girl skipping along without a care in the world, I think of Ickra, my baby!

My prayer for her is to recapture that little girl, love her and know that she is so very special! To know that we are little children in God's eyes and he wants us to be so at peace and happy like a child. Just like little Ickra, skipping along without a care, knowing she's protected and not experiencing the cruelities of the world yet. Little Ickra, before the first heartbreak, the first injustice and before the terrible things that happened to her. She was and still is a most beautiful lady and I hope she one day realizes that for herself! She's dear to my heart and I know I'll always be in her heart everyday of her life.

My Journey

Today I had my psych evaluation with Dr. Paul. She was a great counselor and I hope to have the opportunity to work with her again. The appointment was almost 3 hours long and I really hope she doesn't diagnose me as crazy!

I have one more step and that's with the nutritionist on August 28. Then they submit the paperwork to my insurance for approval. I swear there are a lot of hoops to jump through and at any step there could be a delay or denial.

Working For the Man

I get so weary working and sometimes wish I could take off for a long time but I guess that will have to wait until I retire. I don't realize the stress is so bad until after I've been of several days. I'm seriously thinking of teaching middle school kids and may go back to school in order to get the certification. Then again, I think I really don't want to go back to that grind either. Maybe I should find a rich man, or even one that works will do!! LOL

Back to Work

Had to return to work yesterday after a lovely vacation. Only one person was fired while I was gone; a salesman that was drinking in a company vehicle - real stupid!

I did my 30 minutes on the treadmill when I got home and did some stretches that help the siatica tremendously. I'm eating a lot of fruit and trying to drink water but many times I just forget.

When I got home yesterday, cg, nm and ab were at the house. It's always so good to see them - ab is a typical 14 yr old and drop dead gorgeous! Nm is always cute as a button and Carrie has lost about 35 pounds - her pants are so droopy but it must feel fantastic - she looks great!!

ERD

I had my ERD (endoscopy) last week and it went very well. Another hurdle crossed for my WLS! I was a little nervous but was put to sleep so I didn't feel anything except very hurt that my so called friend didn't pick me up afterwards.

My daughter's surgery

CG had hernia surgery about 2 weeks ago as an outpatient. Wow - we weren't prepared for the pain she would be in afterwards! Since it was outpatient surgery she had to get up and leave very soon after the surgery which I think is crazy!!! She was in so much pain it was very hard to watch, she is still my baby no matter how old she is.

A lot has happened since I last blogged!

EG and I went to Los Angeles for a vacation and had a great time. Spent some time on the beach in Santa Monica, shopping in the Beverly Center and browsing through the Farmers Market. We took a couple of tours, the most interesting being the tour of the stars homes. We did not, however, see any celebs!! We had a great time but it was good to get home again.